cheekysharon.

The month of February is going to be the craziest month ever. It’s only the 10th of the month, but it’s alreay been the craziest month ever. Starting this week, I’ll be having ~three 12-hour night shifts a week in addition to my two days of class. Three night shifts this week, four next, and three more the week after that. Thankfully I’m geting used to the grind of sleeping during the day and keeping myself awake at night (thanks to gum & chewing on ice chips!) but I’m kind of nervous for what I’m going to look like by the end of this week..

Last week I learned the value of being efficient with my time. Although my clinical rotation for that week was cancelled, I used the extra time to prepare myself for the weeks to come. In preparation for this week, I wrote the 4 papers that are due for the next few weeks. I felt like all I did every day was eat, sleep, read and write— but the reward of that is that I don’t have to write another paper until the beginning of march! Suh-weeeet!

Recently, I’ve been becoming more aware of how weak and how incapable I really am to do anything on my own. In the society we live on today, we’re always challenged to do things on our own, to “shoot for the stars”.. “the sky is your limit”, they say. We’re afraid to say “we can’t”—sometimes even refusing to acknowledge our limitations. We don’t enjoy doing things we’re not good at. We flaunt all the good  we have with confetti and glitter so that it will keep people from seeing what we aren’t or how much we arent able to do. It’s only in times like these, when we feel absolutely unsure how in the world we’re going to get through the day when we recognize that we have to depend on a Power greater than ourselves. It’s only then when our independence sheds away to utter dependence, and our confidence hidden by the cloud of absolute helplessness.

It’s only when I see my weaknesses, that I see God’s strength; only when I see my inability when I trust in His ability and only when I recognize the powerlessness of my own willpower when I come to appreciate and treasure His infinite, limitless power.

Despite how anxious or afraid I feel about how I’m gonna get through this month with an intact brain and still-beating heart, I feel so thankful for times like this when God reminds me of His presence in my life. What confidence we have as children of God that our Father in Heaven watches over us, strengthens us, empowers us. I’m thankful for times like these that serve as tangible reminders of just how powerful, how strong, and how great He is.

Going into my first night shift now..
blessed be the name of the Lord.

    But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

2 Corinthians 12:9-10 

p.s Did I mention I got engaged last Saturday????

Well I did!

and I’m the luckiest girl in the world :o)

Give thanks— sweet mornings of fellowship and accountability, the joy of being a part of a Body, morning readings, power of prayer, triple shot of espresso over ice, 4-hour naps to prepare for a night of craziness, the gift of time, the Giver of good gifts.